Invisible Complaints of a Man's Heart
Shona + Zambian Nyanja Mix
Verse 1
Ndimuka same routine, same kuseka pachiso
Ndimauka same routine, same smile on the face
Ndachimanga nsapato, kuyenda another mile-o
I tie my boots, walking another mile
Kuseka pa table, but mumtima mozizira
Laughing at the table, but the heart is cold
Ndanyamula katundu, palibe onzizindikira
I’m carrying a load, no one notices me
Ndinena “Ndili bho” ngati pemphero ndinaphunzira
I say “I’m fine” like a prayer I learned
Ma receipt ya mumtima, inu, sinabwereze
The receipts in my heart, man, they haven’t returned
Check engine yayaka, but ndimayendabe
Check engine is on, but I still drive
Mamuna yekha ndiye aziba kuvutika, kuti apulumuke
Only a man knows the struggle to survive
Pre-Chorus
Ndimaona ma bill pakati pa 2 AM
I see the bills at 2 AM
Maloto ndi “bwanji ngati” zikubwera again
Dreams and “what if” come again
Ndimameza mantha kuti iwe ugone
I swallow fear so you can sleep
Mwari anoziva, zvakavanzika zvakadzama
God knows, the secrets run deep
Chorus
Aya ndi ma invisible complaints e moyo wamamuna
These are the invisible complaints of a man’s heart
Invisible battles, zikundithyola-tyola
Invisible battles, breaking me apart
Ndi inner cry mamuna yekha amaziba
It’s an inner cry only a man knows
Ndimakhetsa misozi chete, mtsinje ukuyenda
I shed tears in silence while the river flows
Strong si kutanthauza sindisweka
Strong doesn’t mean I don’t break
Strong ndekuti ndimapindika, koma sindiphwanyika
Strong means I bend, but I won’t shatter
Lero usiku, makoma agwe pasi
But tonight, let the walls fall down
Ngakhale amphamvu afunika kuika zida pansi
Even the strong need to lay their armor down
Verse 2
Amati “khala mwala”, but miyala imakokoloka
They say “be a rock”, but rocks erode
Pa pressure, madzi amapeza njira yake
Under pressure, water finds its way
Mkwiyo ndololedwa, but misozi imasandulika
Anger is allowed, but tears get translated
Chisoni chimasanduka ntchito, mwana amavulala
Grief turns to work, the boy gets wounded
Ma long drive, nyimbo mokweza, kupha phokoso la mumutu
Long drives, loud songs, killing the noise in my head
Ku gym, set yowonjezera, chifukwa zowawa zipweteka less
At the gym, extra set, because the pain hurts less
Kuyang’ana pa denga: “Kodi ndine mamuna wokwanira?”
Staring at the ceiling: “Am I man enough?”
Ndimayankha ndekha, chifukwa chipinda ndi chouma
I answer myself, because the room is tough
Bridge
Invisible sikutanthauza kuti ndi zopanda pake
Invisible doesn’t mean it’s invalid
Chete sikutanthauza kuti ndapola
Silent doesn’t mean I’m healed
Ukaona ndili chete, dziwa ndikumenya nkhondo
If you see me quiet, know I’m fighting a war
Nkhondo zomwe suzaziwona zoululika
Wars you’ll never see revealed
Cholimba koposa ndichoti ndinene kuti
The bravest thing is to say
“Mukwasha, ine nalikuteka”
“Brother, I’m breaking too”
Final Chorus
Aya ndi ma invisible complaints e moyo wamamuna
These are the invisible complaints of a man’s heart
Invisible battles, zikundithyola-tyola
Invisible battles, breaking me apart
Ndi inner cry mamuna yekha amaziba
It’s an inner cry only a man knows
Ndimakhetsa misozi, koma ndasankha chiyembekezo
I bleed in silence, but I’m choosing hope
Strong si kutanthauza kuyenda ndekha
Strong doesn’t mean walking alone
Strong ndekuti ndabwerera kwathu
Strong means I’m finally coming home
Ndiye mverani tsopano, dziko, mokweza
So hear me now, world, loud and clear
Ngakhale amphamvu ali ndi zoopsa
Even the strong have things they fear
Outro
Mamuna yekha ndiye aziba… mamuna yekha ndiye aziba…
Only a man knows… only a man knows…
Koma mamuna safunika kunyamula yekha.
But a man doesn’t have to carry it alone.