I macneal used to let everybody in
Gave my time like it didn’t mean nothin
Smiles was fake, love felt thin
Learned too late who was really frontin
I trusted words more than actions
That lesson cut me deep
Everybody say they real
Till it’s time to actually be
I seen secrets turn to stories
I seen loyalty get sold
I don’t hate nobody for it
I just move different now, I’m grown
I’m not bitter
I’m just aware
I don’t need a crowd
I just need what’s fair
I don’t trust nobody
And I’m okay with that
I been too open before
I ain’t goin back
I’m not gettin no new friends
I’m protectin my peace
Everybody don’t deserve
The real parts of me
I keep my circle small
I keep my doors closed
If you wasn’t there when it mattered
You don’t gotta know me no more
I watched people switch on me
Soon as life got real
They loved the version of me
That didn’t know how to say “no” or “chill”
I was there when they was hurtin
But they vanished when I broke
So I learned silence over talk
And distance over hope
I don’t explain myself no more
I don’t over-share my plans
What God got for me is personal
I don’t need nobody’s hands
I still love, I still care
I just don’t overextend
Trust is earned, not automatic
That’s how this goin end
I don’t trust nobody
Not like I used to do
I give respect, keep it solid
But I’m movin careful too
I’m not gettin no new friends
I’m cool with my few
If you don’t bring peace to my life
I got nothin for you
I been burned by the closest ones
That’ll teach you how to move
Now I pray before I speak
And I watch what I let through
Lonely sometimes, yeah I admit
But fake love hurt worse
I’d rather sit with my peace
Than be surrounded by hurt
So if I’m distant, don’t take it wrong
I’m just protectin my heart
I don’t trust nobody like before
But I finally trust myself… and that’s a start