[male vocals] I
don't
talk
about
it
much,
I
just
learned
how
to
carry
it.
Smile
when
somebody
asks
me, “
Are
you
good?”
Say, “
Yeah,
I'm
good.”
Even
when
I'm
not.
I've
watched
people
change
on
me,
Watched
promises
turn
into
silence.
Gave
my
heart
a
couple
times
And
learned
that
love
can
hurt
When
you
really
mean
it.
So
I
started
keeping
distance.
Started
thinking
twice
before
I
trust.
It's
easier
to
say
I
don't
care
Than
to
admit
I
cared
too
much.
And
somewhere
along
the
way
I
stopped
feeling
things
the
way
I
used
to.
Not
because
I
wanted
to
be
cold,
I
just
got
tired
of
getting
hurt.
And
I
know
I've
pushed
some
people
away.
I
know
I've
been
hard
to
reach.
Sometimes
I
don't
even
know
What
I'm
protecting
myself
from
anymore.
But
I'm
still
here.
After
everything,
I'm
still
here.
I
don't
have
all
the
answers,
I
don't
know
where
this
road
goes,
But
I'm
still
here.
Maybe
I'm
tired.
Maybe
I'm
not
who
I
was
before.
But
there's
something
in
me
That
won't
let
me
give
up.
I'm
still
here.
Then
I
lost
someone
I
thought
I'd
have
more
time
with.
And
that's
the
part
I
still
don't
know
How
to
talk
about.
I
was
busy.
Life
was
moving.
I
kept
saying, “
I'll
call
you
later.”
Thinking
later
was
guaranteed.
Now
sometimes
I
sit
alone
And
wonder
if
I
should've
been
there
more.
Maybe
one
more
conversation.
Maybe
one
more “
How
are
you?”
Maybe
I
would've
done
things
differently.
But
there's
no
going
back
And
that's
a
hard
thing
to
accept.
I
carry
that
with
me
now.
Not
just
the
memories,
But
the
things
I
never
got
to
say.
And
sometimes
I
ask
myself, “
Why
do
I
keep
losing
people?”
Why
does
everything
I
love
Have
to
teach
me
how
to
let
go?
But
I'm
still
here.
After
everything,
I'm
still
here.
I
don't
have
all
the
answers,
I
don't
know
where
this
road
goes,
But
I'm
still
here.
Maybe
I'm
tired.
Maybe
I'm
not
who
I
was
before.
But
there's
something
in
me
That
won't
let
me
give
up.
I'm
still
here.
And
God...
I'll
be
honest,
sometimes
I
don't
understand
You.
I
still
believe.
I
still
pray.
But
there
have
been
nights
I've
looked
at
the
ceiling
And
wondered
where
You
were.
Because
if
You
were
there,
Why
did
it
have
to
hurt
this
much?
Why
did
I
have
to
lose
them?
Why
did
I
have
to
become
someone
I
barely
recognize
sometimes?
I
don't
say
that
because
I've
stopped
believing.
I
say
it
because
I'm
trying
to
understand.
Maybe
faith
isn't
always
Having
something
to
say.
Maybe
sometimes
it's
just
staying
When
you
don't
understand
anything.
So
I'm
learning
to
forgive
myself
For
the
things
I
can't
change.
I'm
learning
that
being
strong
Doesn't
mean
pretending
I'm
fine.
I'm
allowed
to
miss
people.
I'm
allowed
to
be
angry.
I'm
allowed
to
question
things.
I'm
allowed
to
take
my
time.
And
maybe
I
don't
need
To
become
the
person
I
was
before.
Maybe
I
just
need
to
become
Someone
I
can
live
with
again.
I'm
still
here.
Yeah,
somehow
I'm
still
here.
A
little
more
careful,
A
little
more
honest,
But
I'm
still
here.
I
don't
know
what
tomorrow
brings.
I
don't
know
if
love
will
find
me
again.
I
don't
know
if
I'll
ever
understand
Why
some
people
had
to
leave.
But
I'm
here.
And
I'm
going
to
keep
going.
I'm
going
to
learn
to
love
again.
I'm
going
to
learn
to
trust
again.
I'm
going
to
find
my
way
back
to
You.
Not
because
everything
is
okay.
Because
it
isn't.
But
I'm
still
here.
Maybe
that's
enough
for
tonight.
I
don't
need
all
the
answers.
I
just
need
to
take
another
step.
And
tomorrow...
I'll
take
another
one.
I'm
still
here. (
Slow
fade
out
into
sustained
atmospheric
pads)