[female vocals] Come
a
little
closer…
There
are
things
I
don’
t
say
out
loud.
Things
I
hide
behind
my
laughter,
Things
I’
m
too
proud
to
write
down.
I’
ve
been
loved,
but
not
completely.
I’
ve
been
held,
but
felt
alone.
I’
ve
laid
beside
someone
I
loved
And
still
felt
like
I
was
on
my
own.
I
know
how
to
make
things
beautiful,
Even
when
they’
re
falling
apart.
I
know
how
to
give
somebody
everything
While
quietly
starving
for
their
heart.
And
sometimes
I
wonder…
If
anyone
has
ever
looked
at
me
And
wanted
to
know
what
happens
underneath
this
smile.
Because
I’
m
tired
of
being
strong
tonight.
I
don’
t
want
advice.
I
don’
t
want
promises.
I
just
want
to
feel
like
somebody’
s
favorite
thought
when
the
lights
go
out.
I
want
to
be
wanted…
Not
just
loved
because
you
should.
I
want
your
hands
to
miss
me
when
they
haven’
t
held
me
in
too
long.
I
want
you
to
look
at
me
like
there’
s
nowhere
else
you’
d
rather
be.
I
want
to
feel
that
ache
inside
you
when
you’
re
thinking
about
me.
But
some
things
I
want
I
cannot
have.
Some
are
wrong,
some
are
too
far
away.
Some
belong
to
somebody
else,
some
were
never
mine
to
take.
And
still…
I
think
about
them
anyway.
Sometimes
I
have
thoughts
I
would
never
confess
in
daylight.
Little
fantasies
that
visit
me
when
I’
m
alone
at
night.
Some
are
innocent.
Some
aren’
t.
Some
make
me
laugh
at
myself.
Some
I
push
away
because
I
know
I
shouldn’
t
want
them.
But
wanting
isn’
t
doing.
Dreaming
isn’
t
betrayal.
Sometimes
a
heart
wanders
when
it
hasn’
t
felt
seen
in
a
while.
And
maybe
that’
s
why
certain
things
feel
so
beautiful—
because
they’
re
just
out
of
reach.
I
miss
my
real
smile.
The
one
that
used
to
come
without
permission.
Before
I
learned
to
hide
disappointment
behind
pretty
eyes
and
good
intentions.
Sometimes
I
just
want
someone
to
notice
when
I’
m
not
okay
without
making
me
explain
it.
I
want
to
be
wanted…
Not
just
needed
when
it’
s
convenient.
I
want
somebody
to
crave
my
presence,
to
notice
when
I’
m
missing.
I
want
to
hear, “
Stay
a
little
longer.” “
I’
ve
been
thinking
about
you.” “
I
wish
you
were
here.”
Simple
words…
but
God,
I
miss
hearing
them.
Because
some
things
I
want
I
cannot
have.
Some
are
sinful,
some
impossible.
Some
are
expensive,
some
are
miles
away.
Some
are
probably
better
left
inside
my
imagination…
But
that
doesn’
t
stop
me
from
wanting
them.
I’
m
beautiful.
I
know
I
am.
I’
m
tall,
I’
m
sensual,
I
have
this
presence
that
enters
a
room
before
I
do.
Big
Zee
for
a
reason. 001
I’
m
a
March
Pisces
queen—
soft
where
it
matters,
wild
where
nobody
can
see.
And
maybe
that’
s
the
problem…
People
see
the
woman
but
don’
t
always
see
the
girl
underneath.
The
girl
who
still
wants
to
be
held
without
having
to
ask.
The
girl
who
wants
to
feel
pretty
in
somebody’
s
eyes,
not
just
in
the
mirror.
The
girl
who
wants
someone
to
say, “
I’
ve
got
you.”
And
mean
it.
I
can
stay
when
I’
m
tired.
I
can
forgive
when
I’
m
hurt.
I’
ll
fight
for
something
I
believe
in
until
I
have
nothing
left
to
give.
But
there’
s
a
quiet
moment
when
something
inside
me
goes
still.
And
when
I
mentally
leave…
my
body
might
remain,
but
my
heart
has
already
walked
away.
That’
s
how
I
know
I’
m
done.
No
screaming.
No
dramatic
goodbye.
Just
silence.
I
want
to
be
loved
in
a
way
that
makes
me
feel
safe.
I
want
to
be
desired
without
feeling
guilty
for
wanting
it.
I
want
to
laugh
until
my
stomach
hurts.
I
want
butterflies
again.
I
want
that
stupid,
uncontrollable
smile
I
don’
t
have
to
force.
I
want
to
feel
alive
in
somebody’
s
arms.
But
maybe
I
can’
t
have
it
all.
Maybe
some
people
are
only
meant
to
live
in
our
fantasies.
Maybe
some
moments
are
only
meant
to
exist
in
our
memories.
And
maybe…
the
most
beautiful
things
are
sometimes
the
things
we
can
never
share.
So
tonight,
I’
ll
let
myself
want
them.
Just
for
a
moment.
No
guilt.
No
explanations.
Just
me…
my
thoughts…
my
impossible
wishes…
and
this
heart
that
somehow
still
knows
how
to
love
after
everything.
Maybe
I
can’
t
have
it
all…
But
I
still
want
to
feel
something
real.
I
miss
my
real
smile.
And
I
think…
more
than
anything…
I
miss
being
someone’
s
reason
for
it.